So, ya, boys all suck. Mostly y'know that one that I had dated. See previous entries. Ugh. So, I have been hanging out with a new boy. See, I get lonely, and I like having a guy to do stuffs with. His name is Ryan, Ryan is friends with Mike. Well..was. Arg. So Mike, after breaking up with me, had kinda tried setting me up with guys he knows. So, I had asked his opinion of Ryan. His initial reaction was that Ryan was apparently perfect for me, but Mike said not to choose him, for he feared Ryan might just manipulate me. I at said time had already some liking for Ryan. Like at 5 in the morning, like 5 hours after Mike had sent text saying, overall Ryan would be good for me, Mike sent new texts. He was freaking out. He had been looking at a box of stuff from when we had dated when I had asked him about Ryan. Looking back, I shouldn't have asked him anyhow, but he was the only person I knew who really knew Ryan. Mike was mad and said he had been missing me, and wondering when I had texted him, if he had made the right decision with leaving me. Even had the nerve to say that he would have eventually come back to me if I hadn't said anything, and now he was going to date Jess. Jess is his ex, and I had been jealous of her while mike and I had been dating. So he kinda did that to spite me..I was, needless to say hurt.....
So anyhow, I started hanging out with Ryan, while keeping Mike's warning in mind... I accidentally gave Ryan a hickey.... And Ryan went into coffee shop where Mike works. Mike freaked out at him and banned him from the coffee shop. Ryan considered Mike one of his best friends, so he was really hurt. I felt like crap. I even tried getting Ryan to forget about me so he wouldn't lose his friendship. Ryan however is a sweetheart..and stupid. He said no, he wanted to get to know me more and stuff... So Mike continued being an ass to Ryan and being pissed at me. He was mad that Ryan and I had moved so fast, or something. He seemed to act more like Ryan had stolen me... Then like a week or so later, Mike apparently threatened to break every bone in Ryan's body if Ryan hurt me. William would like Mike to know that he'd have to get in line. I'd like both of them to know, and the others, that they should realize that I'm not a little girl. And I have the ability to protect myself from being hurt. If anyone hurt Ryan over me, I'd be pissed. That leads me back to Mike had no fucking right to threaten Ryan, being that Mike is the only guy who ever hurt me, so he has no right to try and protect me...
Then this weekend, I was, I admit, a bit intoxicated. I texted Mike, saying I forgive him for being an ass. Then he was all pissed and went on about I just mean to hurt him. I would never purposely hurt him. God I'm still stupid enough to love him... But he was pissy...And then to hurt me, told me about him having sex with Jess. Who's cool apparently, and kinda like me except not a emotional trainwreck... So I cried. And that's prolly what he wanted. My phone immediately died, and I charged it the next morning and there was a text from Mike saying that that night was the last night he would cry for me. Why would he still be crying for me? He has Jess, he said he loves her...But he was still crying over me. Arg. Assfuck keeps fucking with my emotions. So I've decided fuck him. I'm gonna move on. Heh, maybe I'll be happy someday? Apparently tho, after that fight with Mike, Mike apparently talked with Ryan, and things are cool between them or something...So Now I'm paranoid.... Heh Oh well...Fml.........Boys Suck.

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